Week twenty

I went to the fucking gym today.

What? You thought my roughly three-month hiatus from posting meant I slacked off, didn’t you? You thought I fell off the wagon, threw my fingerless gloves into a drawer, and slunk off to a corner filled with Cheez-Its and shame. You thought I failed like so many pool noodle barbell pads and pantyshorts before me.

Didn’t you?

Well. You couldn’t be more wrong, bitches. This is week twenty or some shit. I went to the fucking gym today, and I worked the fuck out.

Week 20, bitches. And week... like, one. Or two. Early on.

Week 20, bitches. And week… like, one. Or two. Early on.

That on the left there is after RIPPED this morning. Sweaty mess. Asscrack of dawn.

OMG, speaking of ungodly hours when the sun isn’t out. Last night I went to Body Pump, and thanks to the shortening of the days, it was dark when I left the gym. Then this morning, I went to RIPPED, and it was STILL FUCKING DARK when I got to the gym. I can’t even. It’s like I never left. Someone with severe vision problems who could only see when the sun was out would have seen me go in before the sun set and seen me leave only after the sun rose again and thought I had been in there the whole time. Of course, such a person would have to be camped outside of my gym, stalker-like, and be suffering from this imaginary condition I just made up for the sake of my hyperbole. Just go with it, y’all.

I’m not just going to the gym anymore, either. Oh, no. Now? Now I’m running, too.

wpid-img_20140828_174455.jpgAround the time I wrote my last entry, a couple of my friends from work and I started the Couch to 5K program with the goal of running a 5K race on November 1. If you don’t know (we didn’t, necessarily), a 5K race is 3.1 miles. The Couch to 5K program is this system that, as the name implies, trains you to get your lazy ass off the couch and run well enough to complete a 5K in about 8 weeks. To this end, my Running Mates and I purchased some fancy-pants running shoes (the ultimate accessories), downloaded some apps, and started getting together after work to jog through the sketchy neighborhood near our office.

Make no mistake: I don’t love running, nor do my Mates. But we do it. We do it because we kick ass. And also because there are three of us, and nobody wants to puss out and disappoint the others.

The Couch to 5K thing starts out simply enough. Day one has the app prompting you to do a 5-minute warm-up walk, then run for 60 seconds, then walk for 90 seconds, back and forth for 20 minutes. You do that for a few days, and then the app increases the running time little by little. And that shit has not been easy. We all thought we were gonna die that first week. And then, when the app ramped up our jogs to 90 seconds, and two minutes, and three minutes? Each time, we were scared. Very, very scared. But then… we did it! Because we kick ass, that’s why.

At this point, we are running 20-25 minutes at a time. We ran today, in fact. Today I didn’t run the whole 20 minutes. I got a stitch in my side and briskly walked some chunks. But I have run a complete 20 minutes without stopping, a fact which is monumentally baffling to me. I cannot believe I can do that.

Also, I don’t know if you caught this, but I went to the fucking gym this morning, AND I went fucking running this afternoon. Yeah! How about them apples?

Our 5K is this Saturday. I had hoped to be a little more consistent in my running by now, and running for longer stretches, but I have no doubt the three of us will complete the race, and we’ll run at least the majority of it. I’m already really proud of us. Seriously, ladies; you inspire me and shit.

Now, our 5K is this Saturday, but after we started training and planned to do that 5K, we found out about a mud run that was scheduled for earlier this month, and we decided to do that, too.

We call these the Shin Scrapers/Crotch Crushers.

We call these the Shin Scrapers/Crotch Crushers.

That’s me on the left, balancing on some crazy-ass posts that are submerged in water and mud.

So a mud run is a 5K (this one was, anyway) that has a shitton of insane obstacles all throughout. Really, really messy obstacles. Stuff like, “here, get into this pool of mud and crawl across, under these logs” or “check out these ropes suspended across a muddy lake! Now, walk across one and hold onto the other!” or “now climb over these half a dozen hills made of literal, clay-like mud, and in between each, splash into puddles where the mud goes to your knees!”

That last one, I was for serious worried I was going to lose my shoes.

Anyway, we did that shit. I did that shit! Even the obstacles that were scary. I’m scared of heights; sue me. One surefire way to die is to fall from a high enough height. I’m willing to bet some of the obstacles that involved climbing and scaling shit got to heights sufficient to break a neck. And yet, I conquered my fear and scaled that shit like a BOSS.

So, yes, the mud run was a 5K, but in my mind, it’s not quite the same as the 5K we’ll run this weekend, because the running itself was broken up by so many obstacles. The 5K this weekend won’t take nearly as long and won’t have the full-body challenges of the mud run, but it will be the traditional endurance-tasking challenge of just running and running and RUNNING, not to save yourself from something pursuing you, but instead just to do it.

Still, because we have completed the mud run and have the T-shirts to prove it, I feel we have joined a tribe. The tribe of People Who Run. And the members of the tribe have a uniform that is made of every T-shirt every race ever gave out. That’s right; races come with automatic accessories! Excellent!

To be fair, since I’ve been running, I haven’t gone to the gym quite as often as I was before. I feel my commitment to the Mates to run after work trumps my workouts at the gym, and though I usually would technically have time to go to the gym after a run, I sure as shit don’t feel like it. So that’s the deal I made with myself: if I run, I don’t have to go to the gym. But I can and should go to the gym in the morning when I don’t have my kids. And I’ve been doing that fairly consistently.

And I’ll do it tomorrow, bitches. Because this is week twenty or some shit. And I’ve lost about 10 pounds, and people can tell. And one time I asked if I counted as a “regular pumper” in Body Pump, if my three months (at that time) vetted me as a regular, and one of the other gals in the class said I was definitely a regular, and it wasn’t just any gal but the gal whose shapely ass I noticed the very first time I went to Body Pump. And I’m feeling very body positive, even though I’m not exactly where I want to be, because I feel good about where I am and proud of how I got here.

Weeks 9 – 20

  • Favorite part: running though mud and not getting a brain-eating amoeba (it was touch-and-go there for a minute).
  • Least favorite: being reminded by my exploding lungs that I really need to quit smoking.

I got my rock moves

Oh, the gym.

The gym, the gym, the gym.

Gym gymminy, gym gymminy, gym gym gyree…

The fucking gym.

I realize I haven’t posted since last week. When I checked this afternoon to see when I posted last and try to figure out what week this is, I realized this is the end of week seven. Week SEVEN, y’all!

Week seven was pretty good. I worked out Monday through Thursday, each day. It was very mind/body at times. After the Muscle Milk incident last week, in which I let my stupid brain psych me out, I’ve tried to put my mental energy to good use by releasing it into my workout instead of letting it stay trapped in my head.

Oh, everyone in town who plays the lottery decided they had to buy their lottery tickets at exactly the same moment when I was behind them in line at the Tom Thumb? That’s cool. Imma just do some fuckin’ squats right now.

Oh, my efforts to meet deadlines are thwarted at every turn by people who have no interest at all in timeliness? Hm. Guess I’m gonna lunge that shit out.

Oh, my ex-boyfriend decided to unfriend me on Facebook? Ok. Excuse me while I power press the fuck out of this barbell.

Oh, that dude I met a couple weeks ago is engaged, something he failed to mention to me? Alrighty, then. BTW, I’ll just be over here doing some motherfucking bicep curls.

Speaking of bicep curls, those are probably my very least favorite thing right now. I totally wimp out on my weights for those. Hate. Them. But I did enjoy them one day this week when an instructor I hadn’t met before taught Body Pump and had us doing bicep curls to Pink’s “So What.” That is my jam, bitches. Had I the ability to focus on much more than curling my fucking biceps, I might have belted out the lyrics. “So what? I’m still a rock star. And you’re a tool.”

I got me one of those fancypants fitness trackers this week, a Fitbit. It records how many steps I take per day. Not surprisingly, it’s not that many. I haven’t made any special effort to walk more since I got the thing; right now I’m just interested to see how many steps I take in my typical course of existence. My best day was something like 5,100. Fitbit wants you to take 10,000. I work at a desk. You do the math.

I haven’t done RIPPED since I got the Fitbit. I wonder if it will count things like jumping jacks and kicky things as steps. That’ll be interesting to see this week.

I’m feeling some pressure to go ahead, get the fuck on with it, and start phase two of my master plan. The dieting phase. The pressure I feel is all from myself. Phase one was supposed to be getting into a fitness routine that became… well, routine for me. And it has. That’s part of why I haven’t written about it lately; working out has become something I just do. Not as noteworthy as it was. “Yeah, I went to Body Pump. I pumped my fucking body. We’ve been over this before.”

So clearly, phase one has been successful and has gone on for seven solid weeks. And weight loss has been almost nil. I therefore feel the pressure to stop eating so much fucking junk food and start dropping some poundage.

This thought fills me with resentment, just as going to the fucking gym did at the beginning. But it’s different. Maybe it’s about what the sacrifice would be. Going to the fucking gym represents a sacrifice of an hour or more each time I go (counting things like getting set up and then subjecting myself to the piss-poor showers). That’s no small sacrifice, to be sure, especially since I’m so busy doing things like watching American Horror Story on Netflix and playing Pet Rescue Saga on my phone. However, dieting is somehow a bigger sacrifice. It represents a sacrifice every single time I make choices about food. And I loves me my food.

I talked to someone this week about diet, and she mentioned in an offhanded way something about ordering a salad that doesn’t have cheese on it. I nodded with understanding. But wtf is the point of almost ANYTHING without cheese? Especially a salad. I mean, don’t coat the bitch with cheese, but there’s got to be something for your taste buds to look forward to, and it sure as shit isn’t the often-drippy lettuce or the ice-cold grape tomatoes.

I am considering doing some sort of time-limited challenge. Anyone can do something for 10 days or 30 days or 90 days or whatever. Maybe if I start some kind of plan that has a definite end in sight, that will jumpstart me.

This week could be a good opportunity to get things going, because my beloved children, whose meals mostly come out of my freezer or cans and boxes from my pantry, are visiting family out of town all week. Which means I don’t have to worry about cooking shit they won’t eat. Which, in reality, I realize I shouldn’t give a shit if they’ll eat what I cook or not. Who’s the boss around here? Me, bitches. It’s me. Don’t judge my parenting.

But I digress.

I’m not committing. Like a 30-something single guy with daddy issues. You’re not the boss of me.

Week eight should be a good week. Without my progeny to take to daycare in the morning, I should be able to hit as many asscrack of dawn workouts as I want to and cook as much frozen fish and vegetables as I can stomach. And I bought a new accessory this weekend to cart along with me this week. And I have some exciting new dietary supplements to try.

Maybe I’ll write about it. Maybe I won’t.

Gym week seven, days one through four

  • Favorite part: releasing my aggression with punchy, kicky things and picking up heavy shit and putting it back down.
  • Least favorite part: having any fucking aggressions to need to release. Believe it or not, I’m a fucking lover, not a fighter. Bitches.
Fitbit carefully monitors my activity as I smoke and compose this entry.

Fitbit carefully monitors my activity as I smoke and compose this entry.

Guess what? I’m still hot!

This week, Candy and Alyssa both mixed things up in Body Pump and RIPPED and threw in some new tracks to their playlists. Or… maybe they were only new to me? There’s also this thing where Body Pump and RIPPED are actual, branded programs, and they come out with new seasons, and the long-time participants will say things like, “Oh, that’s from Body Pump 79! Love Body Pump 79!” or “Fuck Body Pump 81! That one is dead to me!” (Edited for clarity.)

Candy had us doing bicep curls to “Eye of the Tiger.” Yes, for real. That happened. I pretty much fucking hate bicep curls, so in my mind, I went full-on drama with it. There’s kind of no more dramatic workout song, amirite?

Candy also provided us with a techno version of “Smells Like Teen Spirit.” I wonder if Kurt Cobain ever imagined a classroom full of women pumping their bodies to his hard-earned grunge jam, the grunge replaced with a techno beat. I kind of doubt it. Maybe things like this exist to help him finish his purgatory. You’re welcome, Kurt Cobain. Offer it up.

Alyssa’s newest offering included a song called “I’m Still Hot” by someone named Luciana. This was not at all familiar to me. I don’t know anything about that crazy rock ‘n roll stuff you kids listen to these days.

Alyssa made us shout “I’m still hot” while we did kicky, punchy things. She told us that Betty White sings this song, and if Betty White can sing it, then so can we.

I mean, Betty White is pretty boss. There’s no denying she’s a role model for us all. I Googled her version of “I’m Still Hot” and learned that I should be sure to sign up for life insurance or some shit when I’m old, because it will make me be able to breakdance. I also learned that muscular dudes like cheesecake when they are shirtless.

My kids also loved Betty White’s video. My seven-year-old daughter wanted to know why, in the scene with the shirtless muscle guys and the cheesecake, Betty White has a large snake wrapped around her shoulders. So of course, I responded in the only way one can to that kind of question coming from a seven-year-old: “Well, honey, the snake is generally accepted as a phallic symbol, which also equates sexuality with the fall of Man. The snake’s close contact with the singer’s body is intended to cultivate an image of brazenness while at the same time generating a sexualized impulse toward and projected from the woman. The audience is intended to feel attracted to the scene concocted by this pairing of woman and snake, at a Freudian level, and perhaps in the case of Betty White, an Oedipal level, which some would say is the byproduct of concupiscence.”

Just playin’. I think I told her it’s just funny.

RIPPED on Wednesday was very jumpy, punchy, and kicky. I’m pretty sure I peed myself a little while jumping. There were many, many jumps. Note to self: pelvic floor still has a little ways to go. But I bet Betty White pees herself, too, so I ain’t ashamed.

My punches are starting to look more respectable, I think. My kicks still make me look like a three-legged dog trying to run up a hill duing a mudslide, but whatevs.

Last night for the first time, I went to Kickboxing with Billy. It was decent, but definitely not as intense as the other classes. It was most certainly not a branded program. There were not songs by pop stars, either aged or semi-current. But there was a lot of kicking and punching. I decided I was practicing my kicks and punches for RIPPED.

Side note: fitness instructors seem to like to tell you to “hit him” and “kick him” when you are doing kicky, punchy things. In an effort to avoid thinking too much about exacting violence on anyone I might actually feel inclined to clobber in real life, I often imagine I’m fighting this guy:


He’s the iconic easy-to-beat guy, so I figure I could TKO him even with my crapass punches and kicks.

I gave in and started doing some ab work at kickboxing. I left out the full-on sit ups, but I did some light crunches, some planks, and some other crazy ab shit. I’m scared I’ll eff up my abs on account of my diastasis, but on the other hand, I just want to see results. So… we’ll see what happens.

Billy, incidentally, was pretty funny. He says “uh huh” and “mm hmm” and “I like that one” a lot. And he has really nice arms that got really sweaty. I kind of have a thing for arms.

I purchased some new workout clothes before kickboxing on Thursday because I hadn’t done laundry, and even the shorts I wore on days I don’t think I peed a little were pretty ripe. So back to my beloved Target I went, and I bought a pair of shorts one size smaller than the others I have, and they fit just fine! I bought a top in my usual size, and it’s a little big! And my fat pants for work are feeling pretty loose! What fun!

I also noticed that workout clothes will often have a “hidden pocket” somewhere, often in some weird place like on the back. I don’t really understand the point of this. First of all, why is it hidden? Is pickpocketing a rampant problem in America’s gyms these days? Second, why is the pocket in the back? If you’re supposed to put your keys in there or something, the second you lie down–as you very often do at the gym, lest anyone believe that exercise is all done standing up–you’re going to lie on your keys. That sounds pretty damn uncomfortable.

I have a good idea for where they could put a pocket for your keys: on the side. Like every other article of clothing. Fucking gym clothes. Trying to be so special.

So I got in my four days this week. Maybe I’ll go Saturday; maybe I won’t. Kind of thinking I won’t. But you never know, bitches. You never know.

Gym Week Five, Days Three and Four

  • Least favorite part: having the bladder and pelvic floor of Betty White.
  • Favorite part: this:


How do I do this shit again?

Man, but it’s been a long day. Started it off right with RIPPED this morning–that’s right, bitches, I fucking made it. I made it without remembering to brush my teeth, so my mouth tasted like morning ass, the banana I ate on my drive, Coke Zero with vanilla, and cigarettes. But I made it.

It was a helluva workout this morning. I’ve done much more Body Pump than I have RIPPED, and it had been so long, and it was so damn early in the morning, that I couldn’t remember exactly what RIPPED was like and what equipment I needed. But I copied the others and grabbed some hand weights and a mat (forgot mine–doh!), and Alyssa handed out stretchy bandy things. And it didn’t take long for me to remember, “oh yeah. I’m jogging in place. I’m doing the crouchy football thing. I’m walking my feet together. I remember now.”

Punchy, kicky things are still my weakness. I have a feeling that anyone I tried to punch would probably lose the fight because my moves would slay him with laughter, not physically harm him in any way. But I tried!

I sincerely do not think I have yet been as sweaty after a workout as I was after RIPPED this morning.

Still wearing last night's makeup. That's how I roll.

Still wearing last night’s makeup. That’s how I roll.

So very, very sweaty.

I think my sweat glands have just in these last four weeks realized what they’re capable of. I break a sweat sooner and sweat harder just in the heat–even when I’m not doing anything. People, I grew up in Florida. I lived in New Orleans. I am one with a hot day. Give me blazing summers over snowy winters any time. So of course I’m familiar with being sweaty, but now that my pores are getting so much practice in, they seem to be chomping at the bit for a chance to deluge me with sweat. “Gimme, gimme more!” they seem to cry.

I scored the less-bad shower. I had time before work to go to Publix and buy BOGO potato salad for my office picnic today, plus a toothbrush to take care of that rank breath I was sporting. I felt the burn for the rest of the day–closer to the first-week agony, but still not as bad as all that. And today, for the first time, I saw a wee, tiny, baby little bicep muscle pop up when I flexed.

So it’s a good day.

Using my gym group fitness schedule as a napkin for my picnic cookies. A study in contrast.

Using my gym group fitness schedule as a napkin for my picnic cookies. A study in contrast.


Gym Week Four, Day Four

  • Favorite part: precious little bicep, standing proud on her own.
  • Least favorite: morning breath fit to peel paint.

Malfunctions of the wardrobe and womanly varieties

Fuck the pool noodle. My bar pad hack can’t cut it; the thing just pops off the bar. Alyssa called me out during Body Pump today: “accessory fail!” Busted.

I’ve been told that bar pads are for sissies, anyway. Of course, some very obvious non-sissies use bar pads in my classes, so take that for what it’s worth. That bit of wisdom did come from a Canadian; perhaps our northern neighbors are hardier than we are down in the US of A. They’d have to be since I’m pretty sure Canada is encapsulated in ice 90% of the time. What’s a little barbell in your back meat?

My wardrobe choices failed me a today as well. My top was all, “check out this belly! Check out this back fat!” I bought three tanks in the same size this weekend, and the one I wore Friday fit just fine. This one, not so much. Fucking size discrepancies. Get it together, fashion industry. The shorts were weirdly constructed and bunched at the top, yet pulled around the leg holes. Shoulda stuck with my Turbo Team Dry Core Max Extreme.


Today’s shorts have built-in “support.” I’m not 100% sure what that means. It basically has underpants built in, but am I supposed to wear those underpants in place of my actual underpants? Probably so, because I, like all women, wear unmentionables made of silk and lace that have to be specially laundered in a river of dreams with soap made from unicorn dust by Dutch maidens wearing wooden shoes, so of COURSE I’m not going to wear them to the fucking gym and sully them with crotch sweat.

Just kiddin’.

But srsly, I’m taking a cue from my four-year-old son’s swim trunks which have built-in underpants and assuming that, like the Highlander, there can be only one. I’m not sure why this is a thing, though. It’s plenty comfortable, but undies are very personal. How would I know these would be comfortable? I didn’t know until I took them home and tried them on. It’s not like you typically try on underwear in the store.

Aside from comfort, is the point to minimize or eliminate panty lines? That’s something else I’ve never understood: this fear that someone will see your panty line. Guess what, bitches? I’ve got news for you: I wear panties. Now if you see a line, you don’t have to wonder, “GASP, are those panties?” Yes. They are. I’m more disturbed by an obvious lack of panty lines with clothing that would reveal them if the panties were present. I mean, it ain’t none of my nevermind if you want to freeball it or go with butt floss, but somehow to me the epiphany that someone is wearing panties is less troublesome than the epiphany that she’s not. Maybe that’s just me.

Anyway, if built-in underoos are meant to minimize panty lines, here again, my shorts failed.

Now, if talk of panties wasn’t enough, it’s about to get ultra-womanly up in this shizz. I’ll give you a warning preview: pelvic floor. If those two words squick you out, you may wish to skip the rest of this post.

So my pelvic floor ain’t what it used to be, thanks to the two beloved miracles I gestated in my womb. I don’t pee when I sneeze (not routinely, anyway), but one time my kid got invited to a birthday party at one of those places with all the bounce houses. Adults were invited to bounce in the houses, and not having bounced in many moons, I happily climbed in. Two bounces later, I had to nope right back out, lest that particular inflated castle have to be quarantined for decontamination.

Some say to do kegels for your pelvic floor. Others say do squats instead because kegels will murder your pelvic floor. (Oh, Internet, how your contradictions baffle!) I haven’t made a concerted effort to do either. For one thing, I’ve never been able to do a kegel before in my life. Everyone who hears me say that says, “Oh, it’s just like when you stop the flow of pee!” Yeah, well. You try stopping my flow of pee. See how far you get. For another thing, squats are actual exercise, and remember, I hate exercise. So I haven’t done any squats dedicated to my pelvic floor, either.

However, each of my rendezvous with the fucking gym has involved squats, and something surprising has happened: suddenly, I can kegel. It’s an unfamiliar sensation. “Oh! Oh… did I just kegel? I think I just kegeled. Is kegeled a word? I did a kegel. I think I did a kegel!”

I kind of want to go back to my OB who delivered my oldest child. During my six-weeks-post-birth probing, she encouraged me to do my kegels. I said, “I don’t know how.” She said, “Do one right now.” I said, “I’m trying!” She said, “You’re not doing it.” Ugh, sad trombone. I suck so bad at exercising that I can’t even do a fucking kegel!

Well. Now I can!

Unfortunately, this is not something I can actually show off. Like, photographically. I mean, not unless I want to start charging for membership, amirite?

At least maybe I can get my bounce on at the next bounce house party.

It’s nearly midnight as I post this, which means I’ll have to get up in 5 hours to get to RIPPED. And I want to, because I think I haven’t been to RIPPED in a week. But I sure do want some sleep…

Will she make it? Stay tuned!

Gym Week Four, Day Three

  • Favorite part: secretly practicing kegels. I could be doing them while you’re talking to me; you’d never know!
  • Least favorite part: pantyshorts and other wardrobe and accessory malfunctions.

Accessories, objectification, and plumbing

If there’s one thing I love about new hobbies, it’s new accessories.

When I was into knitting, I had stitch counters and markers, tote bags and needle cases, hooks, books, baskets, and all manner of other paraphernalia. So far with exercise, I’ve invested in some workout outfits and a pair of shoes (plus my membership at the fucking gym). And this weekend, I bought a yoga mat, which I used this morning at early morning Body Pump.

Updated trade tools, including a yoga mat of my very, very own.

Updated trade tools, including a yoga mat of my very, very own. And more weight. MOAR WEIGHT.

I also wanted to buy a bar pad for when I’m holding the bar on “the meaty part of [my] back,” as the instructions go for lungy, squatty things. But I couldn’t find one of those at Target or Wal-Mart, so I made me a bo-bo substitute out of a pool noodle.

I fashioned this shizz on my way out the door this morning.

I fashioned this shizz on my way out the door this morning.

I told you I’m not opposed to enginuity. I’ll probably get the real thing eventually, but for this morning, and for a buck fitty (and, actually, for nothing since I already owned the pool noodle), this purple piece of foam padded the bar and rescued my back meat from too much pressure.

Pre-pump. Enjoying my 44-ounce Coke Zero with a shot of vanilla. Let's just call that my "energy drink."

Pre-pump. Thumbhole jacket, but no thumbs in the holes. That’s how you know I own; I can leave my thumbs out of the holes. You can’t tell me what to do. Also, enjoying my 44-ounce Coke Zero with a shot of vanilla. Let’s just call that my “energy drink.”

Perusing the exercise sections of Target and Wal-Mart, I was impressed with the accessorizing possibilities. Gloves and pedometers and special types of bags for specific types of things and fancypants water bottles, plus a wide array of stuff made out of stretchy rubber. Lots of material to consider adding to my collection in the future. And in the future, maybe I can actually branch out to one of those athletic box stores that have never held any interest for me at all. I bet they’re fucking full of accessories. Accessories galore!

This weekend, I did not go to the fucking gym. This weekend was about getting my hair cut (goodbye, trademark pigtails!), getting a soothing mani/pedi, going shopping, and cleaning the shit out of my apartment. Yes, I finally cleaned. I’m not going to say I’ve been living in total squalor since I started at the gym, but I will say that my tolerance for child-related filth has increased just a tad in the last three weeks. Or is that just the level of tolerance I’ve always had? I don’t know. Shut up. You don’t know me.

I fretted that my body might have reversed all of its endurance and strength gains in the three days I took off. I needn’t have worried. I pumped that shit like a boss. A BOSS.

Then I got stuck once again in the handicapped shower. I think I may pack a wrench into my gym bag. I can’t make anything much worse if I try to tighten down some hoses and linkages and whatever shower head shit. And if I end up breaking the fucker right off the wall and flooding the locker room (completely by accident, of course), at least someone will be forced to fix it.

In related news, RBF gave me a very pleasant goodbye as I departed today. I want to back down from my flippant labeling of her as Resting Bitch Face. I don’t know her. Seeing bitchiness in her limited interactions with me is probably more a reflection on me than it is on her. For now, at least, I don’t have enough empirical evidence to prove otherwise. Besides, this blog isn’t about tearing people down. So RBF will now stand for Really Bitchin’ Fysique. Duh, physique doesn’t start with an F. But hers is truly bitchin’.

And, okay, yes, I realize the new acronym is objectifying. Look. I’m doing the best I can here. I’m going to the fucking gym, not getting a teaching certification for some new-age feel-goodery.

Speaking of objectification, I’m feeling pretty good about my butt today.

Because I do wear stuff that's not made of Duo Dry Protective Core Max Thunder. Like dresses and cardigans and makeup and jewelry.

Because I do wear stuff that’s not made of Duo Dry Protective Core Max Thunder Clap Tornado Wicking Moisture-No-More fabric. Like dresses and cardigans and makeup and jewelry.

Gym Week Four, Day One

  • Favorite Part: realizing this is week FOUR! Four weeks is a month! If that’s not progress, I don’t know what is.
  • Least Favorite Part: spending my shower wondering how many tools I’ll need to fix the plumbing, and not sure I have the butt crack for the job.

Sometimes bitch face just comes easy

It was raining at the buttcrack of (non)dawn (because does it really count as dawn when the sun isn’t out?) Wednesday as I drove to the gym for Body Pump. I guessed it was probably a good thing I didn’t decide to get into running.

I upped my weights that day, and I definitely felt it in my arms, legs, and ass. Hurts so good!

I didn’t get stuck with the handicapped shower, but the shower I did get had its own problems. Someone had jerry rigged the shower head with what looked like the mouth of a garden hose and perhaps a twist tie. Everything was fine for the first few seconds after I turned on the water, but then something shifted, and suddenly water was shooting out the side of the pipe. I reacted audibly (but no swears), I’m sure to the amusement of whomever was in the neighboring shower. I tried to correct whatever the fuck had gone awry, but it was useless, so I proceeded with my shower.


I took this picture after I got dressed, and whomever had showered while I was getting dressed had somehow jerry rigged the jerry rig, so the effect isn’t as dramatic here as it was for me. Also, I keep saying “jerry rig,” and I have the vague sense that’s somehow an offensive expression. I hope not. Cursory Googling does not reveal why it would be. Forgive if I’m wrong! Anyway, imagine it just like this, but instead of a trickle pouring out the side, a geyser is shooting horizontally out the side.

After I was dressed, I went to advise someone on the staff of the shower problem. I’d talked the previous day about the handicapped stall with the woman at the front desk. She’s very fit and always quite made up, and she has a very strong resting bitch face. When I told her about the handicapped stall on Tuesday, she gave me a bitchy yet concerned look and thanked me for letting her know.

Handicapped shower is handicapped.

Handicapped shower is handicapped.

She was at the desk Wednesday as well, as was Warren (of Lean Muscle with Warren fame) and some dude I didn’t recognize. I said, “Hey, just wanted to let you know the middle shower stall has a problem, too.”

The man I didn’t recognize said, “Leaking?”

As I started to open my mouth to reply, Resting Bitch Face said, “It doesn’t have a problem. I just used it.”

Um? My hair was still wet. Hers was coiffed and stiff with product. However it may have been working when she “just” used it, it wasn’t working that way anymore.

But whatever. Resting Bitch Face led the other guy away and told him she’d show him what she was talking about, and I muttered “okay” to Warren and remembered that judgey gym bitches are one of the reasons I didn’t want to join the gym.

The good news is that most of the ladies at my gym aren’t bitches. At least, not the ladies I interact with. Sweet Candy is sweet; Alyssa is awesome; the regular attendees seem friendly yet focused. I’ve never seen Resting Bitch Face do anything but stand behind the counter, so it’s likely there will be few reasons to interact with her.

And who knows. Maybe RBF is a perfectly sweet young lady. A resting bitch face is not always telling of a person’s true bitchiness.

I’m amused by the little things like jacked-up shower heads that reveal a certain… thriftiness in the management of the gym. Don’t get me wrong; it’s a nice gym. They want you to know it, so there’s a window fountain you see as soon as you walk in the door, and a smoothie bar to the side. The locker rooms have saunas. The back area with the treadmills and ellipticals has signage labeling it “cardio cinema.” Each of those machines has a little TV you can watch, and you can listen if you have headphones.

Behold the luxury! I had to yell at my kids to quit sticking their hands in this.

Behold the luxury! I had to yell at my kids to quit sticking their hands in this.

But then you have shower heads held together with twist ties or hair elastics, which likely won’t be replaced any time soon. And, really, I support mechanical ingenuity. It just seems out of line with the facade that Resting Bitch Face herself represents standing at the front desk.

So that was Wednesday. Thursday, parental duties prevented me from making it to 6 am RIPPED, and I wound up squandering some of the time I had to work out in the circuit room by chit chatting with a friend. I got in two circuits, then had to shower–in the good stall, yay!–even though I didn’t get all that sweaty, because I didn’t shower before I got there. Am I supposed to say that? I’m a morning showerer, but I’m sure not showering BEFORE I go to the fucking gym. That would be pointless.

Even though Thursday was a pretty light workout, I decided to allow myself to take Friday off. It’s not like the first week when I needed a day off because I was hurting so much. It’s more that I was trying to decide when to go and what to try to do, and it started to feel like too much pressure. So I said, fuck that. I went to the fucking gym Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, AND Thursday, and even if that ends up being all I do this week, that is FOUR DAYS. Four days is really fucking good, if you ask me. Ain’t nobody got time for guilt.

I’ll probably go some time this weekend. We’ll see. I have other important things to do. Like get my hair cut and get my nails did.

Gym Week Three, Days Three and Four

  • Favorite part: pumping up my body, til I become sexy. Sing it with me now!
  • Least favorite part: RBF